I feel my skin, may at any moment dissolve into a million illumined constituent pieces and shockingly burst into bits of spontaneous violet flame
We are dancing the tip of that Fertile Crescent
We carry with us the particles of every age
What I really came to give you, I can’t
A monk, alone
A bell, untolled
A glass of water, not poured
Even though you came to me by way of your glorious mechanical, electric machine body
Eyes
Ears
Nose
Throat
It’s not enough for me
For this age
For this numbered experience
I search for paper and ink; to drink
You search for food and water; to live
Because of my life; I write
Eating sheets of paper to quiet my insides, thorns my rumbling hunger pains
I entered the temple grounds barefoot and wandered alone for awhile
Buried my heart meat there to die in the cathedral forest floor
To live again, to rot under that loamy rich soil
I tramped down my foot and squished the earth between my toes and then I rose, a totem into the sky
I have dreamt my palimpsest skin
Myriad stories that lie just beneath a later thin consciousness
Seven stories retold, unfold again and sold for cosmic serpent tails
For a spider weaving her winter veils
I have lost my head again and from my neck spews stardust and comet trails
Men cast their coins down into my well and hope for their wishes of escaping this life to come true; they tie a rope around my ankle and hang on for the ride
Then the ink dries
And he dies inside of me, waiting to be free
Believing the illusion that your eye actually sees that candle in the dark; and not the truth of chemical and electrical receptors, synapses, iris, cornea and retina all playing a game of puzzle - painting what they have agreed
Without you
Is a wax column wick lit stick
If we believed the truth, it would prove slightly problematic
We’d all float straight off the face of the earth in ecstatic bliss and there would be no one left to make wishes or hang candlesticks
The earth would brace herself and forgive the dream
The naked eye
The dismantled bones and empty closets
She’d laugh and say, “What I really wanted to give you, I couldn’t. The view from God’s child-form on this lunatic sphere. Your address was always somewhere else.”
/Nira/